Made For More: Why You Can't Find Your Purpose
why am i alive?
why am i even here?
what is my purpose?
these were all questions that i asked myself + God for nearly 10 years without an answer.
10 years in jobs and in positions and places that i wasn’t 100% convinced were part of his plans for me. and so naturally, those 10 years were also full of emotional rollercoasters between joy + doubt, confusion, insecurity, complaining, pity parties + feeling stuck.
but it wasn't that God didn't hear my prayers or didn't care to answer them. it was that my understanding of what purpose is was rooted in a big fat lie that prevented me from seeing that every single place i was in mattered!
i was my own biggest obstacle to discovering my purpose!
this entire time, i thought i was in major need of a heavens-parting, play-by-play gameplan on how my entire life was supposed to look.
those 10 years, i was praying for god to just tell me what to do, when to do it + how to do it. i thought he wanted me to make something amazing of my life but got some sort of twisted pleasure from demanding me to do the impossible without his power. i felt like he must’ve gotten a kick out of watching my panicked frenzies caused by his silence.
i was more convinced God was a not easily pleased, bossy tyrant who just wanted me to be perfect rather than a good, loving father who wanted what was best for me + wanted to help me become the best version of myself.
my skewed view of God caused me to be terrified of disappointing him + making the wrong move or pursuing the wrong things, so much so that i couldn’t recognize purpose every single time it stood right in front of me.
my 20s were full of a ton of experimenting + risk + trying new things. but they were also riddled all the more with fear, doubt + discouragement after having graduated college.
my life was failing to match the carefully crafted plan i was certain i was going to live.
and because my plans for my life failed, i was convinced i was a failure.
so the more i tried leaning into relationship with God, the more i demanded that he’d just show me all of the details of what my life was supposed to look like so i could just bypass the process and get on to the goodness.
what i really needed was a shift in my perspective. and when that epiphany happened, it changed everything!
purpose isn’t about accomplishing one big thing with your life, but showing up daily to do your best to better the world around you, no matter where you are.
this is why i created the #MADEFORMORE series, because i know how it feels to be in the thick of adulting and feeling like you’re drowning, like you’re wandering aimlessly through life with no clarity, no vision and no direction.
it’s my hope that through this series, we’ll be able to unpack + overcome the roadblocks that’ve hindered us from stepping fully into our destiny and that we’d finally be able to experience the fullness of God’s wild dreams for us right where we are.
so if you're unsure or have felt discouraged regarding your purpose, this #MADEFORMORE series is for you! each episode can help you become free of the mindsets that are keeping you stuck + empowered to get on track to living the life God has for you! watch the first part of the series, “why you can stop freaking out about your purpose” down below!
